Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Show Me the Right Path

Psalms 25:4-5
Show Me the right path, O Lord;
Point out the road for me to follow.
Lead me by Your truth and teach me,
For You are the God Who saves me
All day Long I put my hope in You.

Finally my own computer so that I can continue on the journey. I’m glad as it is that He has allowed me to go this far and feel the light literally penetrate as I pray and write and struggle through the process of self sacrifice in order for it to be His glory and not mine.
George and I have considered what this could mean if I follow what God wants me to do. In reality I should just be doing it. I know that just by doing it, my family and I will be blessed beyond what we ever expected. But as I am only human I tend to struggle with just letting go and putting my full trust in God.
So what happens when we do just let go?
I have learned along the way that my way is really never the right way! Yes I may have my “good” intentions, but until I consult with God first I will not know if my “good” intentions are really all that good!
My point is, when I trust God and really let go, through prayer, I am consistently blessed. When I hang on, I only block whatever blessings God has in mind for me.
That seems to make it a bit easier doesn’t it? Knowing that when we trust in the Lord, His blessings come to us directly. When we don’t trust in the Lord, we block it and it takes a detour so to speak until we do let go and become obedient to Christ.
This includes all areas of life. In marriage, parenting, health, finances, even the small things. It says in Eph.6:18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.
Always be thinking about what God would have you do in all areas of your life at all times. I know, I know. Easier said than done. But God knows this, that’s why He gave us the Holy Spirit. Ask the Holy Spirit to prompt you whenever there is a situation that needs a decision that must be made, and He will prompt you. But we must ask.
John16:23-24 says:
you will ask the Father directly, and he will grant your request because you use my name. You haven’t done this before. Ask, using my name, and you will receive, and you will have abundant joy.
So the next time we have a decision that needs to be made, lets prepare ourselves beforehand.
Let’s pray:
Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you that I may come before you with anything that is in my heart. I ask now that the Holy Spirit will prompt me when I need to pray concerning any decisions that may need to be made. I pray that I bring all of my requests to you and help me know which the right ones are. I know You only have good things for me and so I ask now that when I am struggling to kjust let go that You Lord God will remind me, that You only want to enable to do Your will. In all these things I pray in Jesus’ Name, Amen.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Words We Speak

Proverbs 15:1 A soft answer turns away wrath, But a harsh word stirs up anger.

Proverbs 17:22 A merry heart does good, like medicine, But a broken spirit dries the bones.

Proverbs 17:27 He who has knowledge spares his words, And a man of understanding is of a calm spirit.

As I considered what to write, I thought I would write something profound, but I could not find the words. So, I prayed and asked God to give me even a slightest idea as to what He wants me to understand concerning these verses. I then began to consider prayer and wondered where this fit into the scheme of things.

The only thing I could come up with was not a profound essay, but a humbling prayer instead as this is something that should always be done when a disagreement arises. So here goes:

Dear Heavenly Father,

As I seek You today, I ask that You give me the words to speak, that will be like a honeycomb, sweetness to the soul and health to the bones. Not words that will only cause greater misunderstanding and anger but soft ones that turn away wrath. I ask the Holy Spirit to press upon my heart to remind me to look towards You in the midst of any argument, so that I can speak the truth in love and not hate. I ask You Lord God, to forgive me for the times that I have not looked to You first. I thank You that I can come to You and ask for Your guidance in all things. In Jesus’ Name, Amen!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Too Good to be True?

Once again its been a short period of time that I have written anything, but I really have to all0w God to lead me before I do write anything. After all it is in His timing not mine. As I have been thinking about what I'm to write next, I thought how some things just seem to good to be true, as I'm sure that everyone thinks that from time to time.
How many times do I think this and then it actually be true? Not many I have to say, but when its from God, how can it not be true? God can only give good things, even ones we don't expect or even deserve.
Psalms 21:2-3
You have granted him the desire of his heart and have not withheld the request of his lips. "Selah" For You meet him with the blessings of goodness; You set a crown of pure gold upon his head.
This Psalm can paint one of the best pictures of who God is and who we are to Him and His plans for us. Does this sound to good to be true? Maybe to some, but it's only the best, because we are His sons and daughters, His princes and princesses.
Is it too good to be true when God leads you to do something so completely beyond yourself and it blesses you along the way because you were obedient?
Maybe you need to step back look around you and ask, God, is this too good to be true?

Monday, October 5, 2009

“Beauty” It’s what is on the inside.

“Beauty” It’s what is on the inside.

Psalm 139:14
I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

As you walk along look around you, tell me, what do you see? Do you see beauty? Or do you see man made things that are supposedly beautiful?

Let’s take a look into the bible and see what true beauty is.

My goal here is to break any misconception about what is and is not beautiful. If God created us in His image, how is this not beautiful? He says we are His sons and daughters. How is that not beautiful all on its own?

The answers never seem to come easily, because we tend to look at ourselves and see what we were told to see. Society has given us a guideline to what we are supposed to look like. I don’t think I have seen anyone that was actually that perfect. Even perfection is misconstrued. I think it’s the little differences that make us beautiful!

We are complex beings. We are flesh, bone, the very fiber of the earth. God created us from nothing more then dust, but when He created us, He said "Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness; let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over the cattle, over all the earth and over every creeping thing that creeps on the earth." Genesis 1:26

Let me point out that He said “Let us make man in Our Image.” Tell me, what do you imagine God looks like? To me He is beautiful, He is everything. He is what gives my life beauty, and substance. He is light.

When I put God into this perspective, as small as it is compared to who God really is, I know that He lives in me. His light shines through me. I am beautiful because of Him who created me. Sure I have little differences from everyone else, but that’s what God gave me. I am who I am. If He lives in me, isn’t that what counts. It’s what is on the inside that is beautiful, which in turn makes us beautiful princes and princesses of God’s kingdom.

So the next time you look around you, realize this. God lives in you, and shines through you. You were created in his image. You are exactly what God had in mind!

Thursday, October 1, 2009


Hello everyone, I decided to try something a little bit different this time around. It's from my heart and can be very personal for some! I hope you enjoy it! I always imagine myself being one of those poets that stand on a stage reading a poem with this deep passion and being understood! I dont think will ever happen! But this is what I came up with. Imgine your on stage reading this to an audience....that might help to understand it!


Do you wear a mask?
One that doesn’t quit let people in? One that covers up all your “real” feelings? One that says…”Yea, I’m ok!”, “Really I am, everything is fine, just fine!”
And then every once in awhile , you run into someone that can see right through your mask, so you turn and run home, take that blasted thing off and check it for cracks, and then you turn around and there you stand, in front of a mirror. As you quickly fumble around with your mask to put it back on, because you’re afraid to look deeper into your own eyes, the windows to your soul, because of what you might find there, lurking in the deep darkness you call the wreckage of your life. If you can’t handle what you find, what makes you think anyone else can?
Do you wear a mask?
One that should never really reveal all that you are, even the good is hidden from view. Do you wear a mask?
As you slowly realize you still need to fix the cracks, you remove it once more, and you have this overwhelming feeling to just turn around and really look to see what has been hidden for so long, and what and who should be standing there? You feel overcome with grief , as you thought you were pleasing everyone, yourself, even God.
Do you wear a mask?
As you stand there, revealed to yourself all that you are , you fall on your knees, and you ask why you needed this mask for so long? What good did it do? You ask God to forgive you for being so silly as to think you could hide all that was wrong from everyone, even yourself.
Do you wear a mask?
Jesus walks up to you and gathers you into His arms, and tells you He loves you , to trust Him and He will show you the way! You can hardly believe it, but you soon realize that’s all you needed to do to be pleasing…”Trust Him”!
Do you wear a mask?

Wednesday, August 19, 2009


My Vision is becoming a slow reality. God opened up a door that can not be closed. I see where He is working, and I can only promote it and say...Yes He is Good! Here is one of the writing assignments I have been working on in the past 2 months. I hope you enjoy!


Did you know that the word Love appears in the bible 496 times? Do you think God is trying to say something here?
I think what God is saying is that loving one another is not optional! HM?... If it’s not optional, how do we apply this to our daily lives, this thing called love?
I have struggled with this for a long time? Yes it’s easy to love someone when they are loving, but when they are not so lovable, I ask myself….OK now what? Of course the verse John 3:16 immediately comes to mind.
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

If God can love us that much, who’s to say that I can’t? And this is why:

( If you have your bibles, go ahead and turn to John 15:1-17 )

1."I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener.
2.He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful.
3.You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you.
4.Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5."I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.
6.If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned.
7.If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you.
8.This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
9."As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.
10.If you obey my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have obeyed my Father's commands and remain in his love.
11.I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete.
12.My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
13.Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.
14.You are my friends if you do what I command.
15.I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master's business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you.
16.You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit--fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name.
17.This is my command: Love each other.

When I read this passage I know how important this thing called love is. Why it’s not a thing after all, it’s God! You see when we keep all of Gods commandments; we will abide in His love “in Him”. And if we abide in His love, this is true discipleship. When we remain in Christ Jesus, love abounds, if love abounds, it is a way for the world to know that we are Christ’s disciples.

Let’s pray:

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for giving me this opportunity to share this devotional to these wonderful people of faith. I ask that You bless each and everyone of them according to Your riches in heaven. I ask that you continually show us how to love one another as you commanded us so that we will be a sweet perfume that draws people to You. Thank you Lord for loving us unconditionally and showing us Your ways. In Jesus’ precious Name. Amen

Love led Jesus to come to us. Love of Christ leads us to love others. And love leads us to minister.

Saturday, June 20, 2009


As I have said before, I have been in a battle. Little did I realize it was more with myself then anything. I have been fighting with myself to change. Change is hard no matter how you feel about it, especially when it comes to yourself.
I have been doing this bible study with a wonderful group of friends and my choosen family called Experiencing God, and I ran smack dab in the middle of what I feel is my vision that God has given me. I question if this is it, writing for God's glory or is this a journal of my life?
I have been praying to figure out what exactly I should be writting about, as I have been unsure what it should be. Based on one subject, or is it a multiple experience. I wasnt sure. So I have been praying that God reveal to me what and where He is working!
As you also know it has also been a battle in my marriage. What many do not know, I have been married before and it failed miserably. I can not and will not place all blame on my ex husband. I didnt have a clue what marriage was about. Not because my mom didnt display that, but I was blinded with unbelief.
So when I went through my divorce, God drew me near to Him. All my parents told me was .....You need God! My divorce was one of the hardest things I have had to experience. Only because I depended on him so much that I was blind to the fact that what I really needed was God.
I had been saved at seventeen and was baptised, I didnt have a clue what followed. I struggled many years trying to find where I fit in. I eventually rebeled, married the one man my parents didnt agree with , moved away with my son, had another son and moved even further away from my one spiritual connection. Well guess what? They followed me here. They saw what was coming before I did. It was God's prompting for my mom to go. My husband of 7 years left me.
I cried and was a broken hearted little girl that didnt have a clue who she was.
Another friend whom I barely knew gave me a book called The Power of a praying Wife, by Stormie Omartin. I didnt nessesarily believe it would do any good, as my marriage was in shambles. But something kept telling me to just open that book and start reading the prayers. So I did.
What happened next, was not what I expected. What I did expect was for God to change my husband, make him change his mind. What I didnt expect was, God changed me instead. Through prayer! I cried,and I fought every step of the way.
God put people in my path and helped me see, that His love was complete, that He loved me no matter how rejected I felt on this earth.
Then I drew near to Him!
My life has changed so much that I sometimes have to stop and look in that mirror and see what God has done for my makeover! It has been seven years sense that day I walked away from my first marriage. And that little girl is nothing but a memory that God does not require me to let go of, but to learn from.
From that point on, I have been relationship focused. I have had this curiosity about why God created this institution called marriage with a burning fire that can not be explained. I have read passage after passage about relationships, marriage, sisters, brothers, mothers and fathers. God is a God of realtionships. He created us so that He might have a relationship with you and me.
Now back to the vision. The battle I have experienced in my very new marriage has brought me to what I believe God is saying. It needs more prayer and believe me I will ask. I feel this need to fight for marriages. God didnt create them the way the world sees them. He created them for a very distinct purpose. I have have always been driven to read anything on marriage. About how God calls Wives to be and How God calls husbands to be is not something God over looks, and certianly something we should not overlook either.
One of the things that sticks out in my mind is I had called a very close friend to me, I feel I can tell her anything, and I do mean anything. I called her upset and she told me, DONT GIVE UP!!! Pray, fall on your knees, God is sitting right next to you as we speak, holding you, loving you and giving you the strength you need to make it! And then she told me a little bit about what God has done for her marriage. I cried like you would not believe because I could feel Him sitting there, wiping those tears away! What she told me next was something I hadnt thought about in quit some time. She asked if I had The Power of a Praying Wife book. That was God right there! Speaking to me through that wonderful women! After our conversation, I pratically ran to that book. I prayed every single prayer in that book that night, on my knees and in the middle of one of those prayers, I stopped and asked God, what do I need to change, forget about me wanting to pray to change him, but what do I need to change about myself.
I was thinking, God, You do have a sense of humor. Cause here I am once again, needing changing and its through that same book! Go figure. As God's vision starts to unfold right before my eyes.

To be continued.......

Monday, June 1, 2009

Struggles, Victory, Humbled

I don't know about you, but as for me I have been in a battle or maybe its a testing of my faith? In any case I know God will see me through this struggle, and I know victory has been won and I am humbled by His amazing grace.
This past few weeks that I have not been posting anything in my blog I have been in a battle for my marriage, my finances, my kids, my life in general.
I feel like every corner I turn, there is satan or one of his demons waiting to attack what I so desire to do.
Hmmm...I must be doing something right? Or am I? That's the biggest question I have right now. Am I really doing everything God has commissioned me to do? Oh but wait...am I looking to see where God is working and stepping out of the boat? Maybe I am.
I finally got to the point of literally falling on my knees and asking God to show me what I need to change. You know what He told me?
Get out of My way, I see what is coming before you do, I Am right here with you, I will never let you fall, and if you do, I will pick up and you will have victory over this war, I hear you and I love you.
You see this prayer was for my husband, I want so badly for him to see where I am and come and join me in this place of total reverence for God. I want him to be what God created him to be. But my biggest issue was not letting go and getting out of God's way and trust His timing. I want instant results. But were the results of me becoming what God is creating in me to be instant? NO!!!!!
It took time and lots of patience and it still is as He is not done with me yet.
So, my faith is this....Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Ps 37.4
So if I delight myself in learning Who God is, He will answer my prayers. He knows the desires of my heart. He has something even better in mind for me then what I could ever dream of and I am humbled.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Tug O' War

Have you ever really thought about why we play Tug O War with God? I think it is because we always have this misconception that we can handle just about anything. I mean really think this through with me. Me being a mom that has been through it 'all', as I am sure most moms can relate, from Broken arms to broken hearts, colds, allergies to foods, to attitudes in the morning, from he did it, she did it. We have to litterally be Investigators to doctors. This to me seems like a challenge in it self for most, as we are constently learning to change and grow. At these times, we must learn to just let go of that rope and quit telling ourselves....I can handle this no sweat! When in reality, we are stuggling to hang on for dear sweet life and hope we are going in the right direction while raising our children. We forget that we have a very powerful, loving God that can give us the decernment and the knowledge if we only ask. We need to remember, that God will give us what we need to accomplish what seems impossible. So when He tugs on that rope..let go and let God.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Questions We need to ask our husbands Part 2

Yes I know this should of iimmediately followed the first one, but.......the very next day came and I was sitting in Bible Study and i receive a text message from my husband, whom has been working out of town for the last few weeks. He tells me he has been thinking more about the question I asked him and that there is one thing he would like to change about me. Oh dear I thought , what did I do that his mind would be changed in the course of one single day!!!As you may recall, he did not wish to change a thing about me. That I was who God created me to be.. Well almost! See I have two sons, but George is not their biological father, but he is defiantly their dad, and so wishes to have another one (clears throat) a girl to be exact! He does not have any children of his own and so wishes to experience that with me.
Here's the catch. I had decided 11 years ago to be exact to have a tubal ligation. At that time and even at times today, I did not want to bring another child into this sinful world. As I look around me , I see what we as humans have created. God gave me a spirit of discernment and to really see what this world is scares me.
So with my soul bared, I must say this is a daunting decision for me. I have prayed about it for the last 2 years but never seemed to be able to totally let go of it and let God help us with this decision. And I do mean every part of it. Financially, physically, mentally, everything. So with the help of a wonderful friend through prayer I am beginning to do just that...letting go, and trusting God with all our hopes and dreams.
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Be Still

So here I am and it's Friday....yay!!! Made it another week in the grind of our daily working lives. As I was just about to add a friend to my blog (with pointer ready to click) the electricity goes out......I thought for sure I clicked on something I shouldnt have and caused half of Scottsdale to lose power! But I am fortunante that I do not have that kind of control!
I think it would happen more often then not if I did. Its amazing how quiet everything gets when we lose power. Not a whir from the computers, no phone calls coming in, not even a car drove by it seemed. I can say that it was the most quiet I have experienced in my waking life in quit some time. How easily we forget what its like to just be still.
This brings me back to :Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10
As I sat here and thought about this, I realize how often we get wrapped up in our own lives and pay no attention to what God is doing around us and for us. God gives us these little oppurtunities to just stop and be still and reflect on Who God is for us personally and what He is doing presently....
So the next time the power goes out remember to....Be still, and know that He is God.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Questions We need to ask our husbands

As part of a class project and homework for my Women's Bible Study, we were to ask our husbands a question. As normal, I hesitated to ask this question. I did not want to react in a negative way or take it to personally but it was very personal about my very own character. We were to ask our husbands, "If there is one thing you think I need to change about myself, what would it be?" As intimidating as this may seem, I finally asked George this question. As he was thinking about this, all sorts of things popped into my own mind of what I think I need to change about myself and I greatly anticipated what he would say. When he finally answered, I was astonished to hear ( Nothing). I looked at him and said are you sure, there has got to be something you would want me to change? He said nope, nothing. I love you for the way you are, you are you and I would not have it any other way.!!!! Talk about up lifting!!! As a friend of mine puts it, God has blessed my socks off!!!

Friday, April 3, 2009

Our Inheritance

Eph. 1

A girl whom I mentor had asked me,” What is faith?” As I began to explain to her what faith was I realized something crucial was missing in our conversation. I realized that she had not accepted Jesus as her savior. I stopped dead in my tracks and asked her, “Have you prayed and asked God to forgive you and accept Jesus into your heart?” She said “No” . I then asked her if she would like to? She had a resounding, YES!!!! So we prayed that ever joyful and very heartfelt prayer together, and with tears in my eyes I realized God was teaching me a thing or two about faith. I was then able to teach her the exact faith I have in God.
The Holy Spirit was there in my heart prompting me to say what was placed in my heart for that exact moment. I was blessed beyond anything I could imagine as I had put my faith and trust in God many years ago about this girls salvation. God allowed me to be a part in it and to see Him glorified was nothing but exceptional.
I believe that is part of our inheritance. Our faith and seeing Him be glorified goes beyond anything we will ever experience on our own..

Eph 1: 1-12 says this:Paul, an apostle of Jesus Christ by the will of God, To the saints who are in Ephesus, and faithful in Christ Jesus: Grace to you and peace from God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ. Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose us in Him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love, having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He has made us accepted in the Beloved. In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of His grace which He made to abound toward us in all wisdom and prudence, having made known to us the mystery of His will, according to His good pleasure which He purposed in Himself, that in the dispensation of the fullness of the times He might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven and which are on earth--in Him. In Him also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestined according to the purpose of Him who works all things according to the counsel of His will, that we who first trusted in Christ should be to the praise of His glory.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

God's Work

Hi everybody, I’m fairly new to this whole blogging thing and I hope I never offend anyone, but I’m very honest and to the point about my personal relationship with Christ Jesus.As I have learned though my journey that no matter what happens here, I forever will look towards eternity, I constantly remind myself that this is not our home, but heaven is, and to never be conformed to it but be transformed by the renewing of our minds.(And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. Romans 12:1-2)I feel, due to the fallen state our world is in, we are sinners but God has a greater call on each of our lives, so my brothers and sisters, do not be discouraged but be encouraged to run the race with endurance. Sometimes God allows difficult circumstances to do a mighty transformational work in our lives. He will protect us and see us through, even in the darkest moments in our lives, when we feel He is not near us. Romans 8:38-39, “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any power, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus.” (NIV)
He is constantly working on our behalf no matter what. Have faith and step out of the boat and share the good news, we no longer need to fear!!!