Monday, June 1, 2009

Struggles, Victory, Humbled

I don't know about you, but as for me I have been in a battle or maybe its a testing of my faith? In any case I know God will see me through this struggle, and I know victory has been won and I am humbled by His amazing grace.
This past few weeks that I have not been posting anything in my blog I have been in a battle for my marriage, my finances, my kids, my life in general.
I feel like every corner I turn, there is satan or one of his demons waiting to attack what I so desire to do.
Hmmm...I must be doing something right? Or am I? That's the biggest question I have right now. Am I really doing everything God has commissioned me to do? Oh but I looking to see where God is working and stepping out of the boat? Maybe I am.
I finally got to the point of literally falling on my knees and asking God to show me what I need to change. You know what He told me?
Get out of My way, I see what is coming before you do, I Am right here with you, I will never let you fall, and if you do, I will pick up and you will have victory over this war, I hear you and I love you.
You see this prayer was for my husband, I want so badly for him to see where I am and come and join me in this place of total reverence for God. I want him to be what God created him to be. But my biggest issue was not letting go and getting out of God's way and trust His timing. I want instant results. But were the results of me becoming what God is creating in me to be instant? NO!!!!!
It took time and lots of patience and it still is as He is not done with me yet.
So, my faith is this....Delight yourself also in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Ps 37.4
So if I delight myself in learning Who God is, He will answer my prayers. He knows the desires of my heart. He has something even better in mind for me then what I could ever dream of and I am humbled.

1 comment:

  1. Your insight is amazing Sarah!! It's like you read my heart. Thank you for your transparency.